Oh man, a serious post, or rather, a serious topic? This can’t be good. Though, it has been a while since I had a good rant at my own expense, so this will be fun. Maybe.
So, the question of if I was getting old came up as I watched this year’s E3 last week. I watched it like I always have in the previous years, but something felt off, weird even. I watched Microsoft push the Kinect like there was no tomorrow for it. I watched Sony apologize for the PSN downtime and introduce a new handheld. I watched Nintendo pull on my nostalgic heart strings and unveil their newest console. And all the while as I watched, I found myself uninterested and unable to care as much like with past E3s. Then a question popped in my head. Am I losing interest in gaming?
The one thing I have spent 20 or so years of my life with, enjoying and escaping to other mysterious and fantastical worlds with. The one thing I considered a “dream job” and the one thing I said I would never give up because it has been the reason for a lot of great things I currently pursue, one of those things being this blog. And I’m losing interest in it? That’s absolutely silly, or so I thought at first and removed the silly question from my mind. But my brain is a bit of an ass and kept bringing it up.
I couldn’t possibly be losing interest in gaming! I’m looking forward to a number of games, like Rage, Skyrim, Dark Souls, and so many others. It couldn’t possibly be that I’m losing interest in gaming. So what is this nagging in the back of my head? Then another question popped into my mind, which was all that was needed to plant the seed and that seed has been growing since. The question, of course being, “Am I getting old?” Am I? I think that’s a fair question to ask myself, especially when I’ve always said to myself that I would grow old, but never grow up.
Well, I have been walking and exercising more and I’ve even started watching what I eat, but that may be because I want to be a little more healthy than I currently am. I’ve begun to notices little changes about my tastes in a number of things, like foods, music, movies, etc. Movies I use to like, or at least thought I like, look dated and don’t hold any more of that sweet nostalgic juice anymore. And getting back to the topic of gaming, I’ve found myself hardly playing anymore when I used to have marathons that would rival those that lasted 4 or more days. (I miss my high school LAN parties)
So, it would seem I’m getting old AND growing up. In a sense, anyway. Something I said I would never do. I guess the next step is to become a black-hearted cynic, but that would be a very silly thing, so I’ll just skip that part. I feel my brain has betrayed me and my ultimate goals, but life goes on and I’m sure other things will come a long for me to enjoy. And I’m sure once Skyrim and Dark Souls get here I’ll enjoy them as well. However, part of me feels it won’t be with the same, child-like wonder and enthusiasm I once had.
I don’t want to go…
